Missing him

I am missing him so much today. I know where he is but i can not contact him. I miss talking to him although he just phone me this morning. It was just a short phone call but it was enough at least for the moment to cure an aching heart. I really do miss him. I miss everything about him. I miss his smell. I miss his presence. I miss being with him. It has been almost a year now that i have not been with him. It is sad isn't it. Thats the reality of it. Long distance relationship. Most people said that it was not going to work..... because it is so far. So far we had made it work. I guess today was extra hard for me becase i am not able to contact him like usual. He has gone to another country just for a month and i don't know his phone no there. I am sure he is missing me as much as i am missing him. He did phone me eventhough it was a short phone call. I wish that i was with him. I really do. I long to be with him at this moment.

I miss his touch. I miss how he says things so sweet. I miss being teased by him. I miss how he holds my hand while he drives. I miss everything. I dont know when i will be able to see him. I hope i can see him soon. It is sad....... i feel sad..... i really miss him so much. Honey i miss you..... i really do miss you so very much.

Stress

Some people may say i complained a lot. Maybe thats true. But hey i wont tell people that i am happy. Some may not like it. I write what i feel. At this very moment i am stress. The past two days i have been working my ass off. When everyone is having fun celebrating christmas, i was stressing at work. Especially when it involve cleaning up other peoples mess. It is such a pain and it was driving me insane.A stupid bitch call E wrote a whole list of things for me to do. As if i dont have enough to do as it is. What an asshole. Not only do i have to tolerate her squeeky voice and her oooooooo.... i am a god child attitude and also i am so pretty look at me look at me. She so childish. I don't understand it. Ok fine maybe she has been lucky so far. Not having any problem. Welll i just want to see her day turning into custard. Honestly i was on the verge of crying but i did not. One can only take so much. Anyway i guess its ok. That is life i guess. I am over it now.

Annoyed

Today i am so annoyed!!! Why? i tell you why? Why did i not listen to myself and just live on my own. Life would have been much simpler and easier if i did. This flatmate of mine whos boyfriend actually owns the house is driving me insane. Her squeky voice and all. I really am starting to hate this house is suppose to be a sanctuary not a torture cell but. why does this have to happen. I really dont understand why. My only thing is that she better not involve the landlord if there is anything. First thing first. What the heck...... talk about fairness. She talk about bloody fairness. Well let me tell her something if she wanted to be fair. we should have flip a coin or something to know who gets the crappy room. A crappy room with thorn wallpaper. Even an illigal imigrant would not want this room. Fungus all over the room is so small. Then there is this thing...... oh well i think you should pay this and pay that bloody heck.... stupid girl i am both annoyed and angry at the moment. I am determine to move out of this house if she starts to become bitchy and noisy i will move out of this house i will. I am not a stupid person and i will not be treated like one.